listening to: Stone Temple Pilots
mood: blah

(Yay, first entry woo.)

Yep, I realize that title makes no sense whatsoever. Deal with it.

So like, I'd say that I just came to the realization that I overanalyze/overthink virtually everything... but that'd be a lie, as I've known it for quite some time. Now see, the thing is, I suppose at times this could be useful... though I've yet to discover these times. Mostly all it does is give me more of a headache and more annoyance and unnecessary stress. It's kinda like an STD for my brain. I wonder if I smacked myself over the head with a rubber mallet, if pus would shoot out my ears.

It's especially annoying when this kicks in on me when all signs point to a situation being alright. The cogs and wheels in my head start turnin' slowly, but quickly work their way into overdrive, blowing either minor things or things that aren't even there way out of proportion. Makes me all anxious, and just makes me feel bad in general.

Doesn't discriminate situations either, I tend to do this with nigh everything. You name the situation (within seriousness), and I've most likely overthought it if I've encountered it. I've done it badly enough at times that it's actually made me sick, which is about as fun as being kicked in the groin. Repeatedly.

On a side note... I also hate it when nervousness and anxiety causes me to not be myself, no matter how hard I try. Natch, I guess no one likes this I suppose, but it seems very prevalent in me. Makes it hard for me to share who I am with a potential partner. Admittedly not being great at the whole dating thing doesn't help this matter either...

Without going too deep into detail as to what triggered these thoughts... I will say that it stems from a date this past Thursday night that didn't go as smooth as I was hoping. The female involved in this situation, I've discussed this with already, and I've been assured everything's alright. But if for some crazy reason you'd wanna know more, I may share.

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very interesting 1st posting. Overthinking oversucks, when you think about it and read ur post, it does make senes, lol
» CPKviperpheonix on 2007-09-08 03:02:31

yesss, very interesting indeed. Do tell more. Do tell.
» Zanzibar on 2007-09-08 05:57:37

Well aside from dinner, everything I had planned kinda went down the crapper faster than diarrhea. Late to the theater for any movie we'd have watched, bowling alleys around here have league nights on Thursdays, which I forgot... and hell if I know anything else to do around here. So it kinda ended with us just sittin' around talkin' outside her dorm building. Wasn't exactly anywhere near the ideal time I wanted to show 'er, since I'm fairly interested.

I apologized for things goin' wrong, and she said it was alright and to still call her. Maybe it was my overactive imagination, but I thought she was actin' a tad differently. But I guess since she's still talkin' that should tell me it's all still good.

Screw low self-confidence right up it's pooper.
» BigErn on 2007-09-08 08:28:26

It makes more since than a Guns N' Roses song I guess
» vegas on 2007-09-08 09:10:12

Now that I think about it, it sounds like some dopey emo type song title.
» BigErn on 2007-09-08 09:27:53

i overthink too which err sometimes people think i'm cynic and too detail. sometimes my workmates don't like this side for me too because my work is just too detail. and what makes things worse is i'm a perfectionist although my standards have decreased for the past few years.
» renaye on 2007-09-09 03:21:37

I know what you mean about nervousness; the way it makes us.. less assertive. I dunno.


» Dilated on 2007-09-09 09:19:48

Yeah, tiz kinda hard to explain. At least for me it is.
» BigErn on 2007-09-09 09:42:08

Yay You finally posted!!
» lyndeep on 2007-09-10 09:53:02

You gonna ask her out again?
» theZEBRA on 2007-09-16 08:04:52

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